on a whim

on a whim i decided to see what would happen if i typed in livejournal. everything else decent is blocked, i even think LJ was blocked as some point. well it panned out a here i am. it has been so long since i logged into LJ. the only reason i joined was to read bjfic and i haven't done that in quite some time.

last month or so i caught a few minutes of QAFUK, i would have liked to see the first episode. but since i came in around 3 or 4, i couldn't get into it. when i was all about qaf, all i wanted to see was the brit version.

ok, well this seems like just as good a post as any for not being here for so long. so i shall sign off.

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Can someone recommend some good Twilight fic?

I'm trying to get the movie Bella/Edward out of my head, so with nothing to read at the moment (until I get to the library), I picked up Twilight to read again. I never read any fic b/c it didn't interest me at the time.

Can anyone recommend a good story or author? I would prefer early fic, like around Book 1 or 2, I would even take book 3. But please no Book 4 b/c I was really disappointed in that book.

Thank you for your help.

What I Didn't like About Twilight

I saw this movie on friday night along with the millions of other 13 year old girls. I certainly did not fit into this population but I wasn't the oldest. I would however say I was one of the youngest of the older crowd.

I read all 4 books and enjoyed them. The first book was my favorite. The last book, I had a lot of issues with some of the choices Meyer made, but that is neither her nor there.
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Surgery Update

The surgery was super successful. I had a hard time with the anesthesia and it took me 4 days to be able to hold food down. On Monday, my stitches came out and they look fantastic. I’m still in pain and probably will be for a little while longer. I have to wear a support bra 24hr a day with the exception of showers for the next 3 weeks. I go back to the doctor next week for my second follow up. There is still about 10% swelling. My support bra is a D cup but hopefully once the swelling goes down, I will be a C cup. My clothes fit me better. I wore a shirt tucked in the other day and I could see that I had a torso instead of being all boob. I know every day will get better and I can’t wait to go shopping. My first purchase is going to be a convertible bra.

Pre-Op Appointment – 25 Days to Surgery

I look in the mirror and I think, “I’m not that big. Maybe I really don’t need this surgery.” Then I talk off my shirt and I take off my bra and I say, “Holy crap.” Of course I need this surgery I am huge, I’m a 34E. I’ve been wearing a bra since I was 10 years old, or at least it seems. I don’t even remember being flat chested, though there are pictures to prove that I once was. I think I went to bed the night I hit puberty and woke up the next day with gigantic breasts. But in less than one month my dream will come true and have a perfectly proportional chest.

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To Read about my consultation:
How My Dream Came True
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How my life long dream came true

I hit puberty when I was nine years old. During the winter of 4th grade, I grew 6 inches. After that, I felt like I stopped growing, but my boobs continued to grow. By the time I was in 5th grade, I could not go without a bra. All through middle school and high school, I was made fun of for having a large chest. I knew I was top heavy and disproportional, but there was nothing I could do about it. In college, I went on the pill and I went up another cup size. By this time, I could only buy custom made bras. I was never able to shop in Victoria’s Secret. They didn’t make bras with small enough band sizes to match large cup sizes. In college I finally met a few girls with chests larger than mine. I didn’t know they existed out there. Granted most were bigger all around too.

In 2004, I started my first job after college and went for a breast reduction consultation. I had my hopes set so high that I was crushed when my insurance denied my claim. I wrote letter after letter to the insurance company about back pain, grooves in my shoulders from the straps, and indentions underneath from the under wire, but still I was denied.
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I feel like it has been forever.

So I had my last day of my old job on July 11th and had a week off before starting my new job on July 21st. I had to give my laptop back to my old company and now I'm sad. I was so spoiled with my WI-FI laptop. I could have my laptop with me anywhere in my house and use the internet. Now that I don't have it anymore, I have to go to my desktop which is located in my basement. I've thought of moving my computer to the main floor but I'm not. Then I thought that my new job would give me a laptop. But they gave me a desktop. Reasoning is, now I'm working with top secret information and I can't let it leave the facility without all sorts of crazy protocols.

Speaking of the new job. I love it so far even though I haven't done anything yet. Yesterday I had orientation and tomorrow I have more orientation. Today I met my team, had a team meeting, met other co workers, set up my desk and started reading documention. Fun fun. But the environment is 100% better. There is a perfect mix of people from 20s to 50s and men and women. So I'm happy.

Plus I'm loving flex time and the shorter commute. Today I worked all day, went grocery shopping, went to the gym for an hour, and was home and showered before 6:30pm.

Well, now I'm off to catch up on LJ since I am so far behind in EVERYTHING!!!
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A New Chapter Begins...

On Friday, June 27h, I handed in my resignation to my boss. I was nervous as hell before hand, but I knew it was what I had to do. From the 45 mile commute (usually traffic free thanks to my reverse commute), to the harassment from a coworker that I had to go to HR about(i journaled about that one too), to the uncertainty of my job (even though they assure me my position is safe and I won’t be relocated to Milwaukee).

I’ve enjoyed my five years of service starting from an intern writing scripts and testing code to a full time employee working on report development and writing functional design documentation for the new system.

I start my new job on July 21st. I am utterly excited. I am already scheduled for training, but luckily it is local. Unlike my current job which got rather tedious. I’m looking forward to a short commute, flex time, meeting new people, and learning new skills.

The time has come for me to start a new chapter in my life and I can’t wait for it to start….
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Riding with the BIG BOYS

This passed weekend was the bikeMS 150 mile bike event. But despite the oppressive heat, I completed the ride with record time. My training definitely paid off. On Saturday, we rode as a team. My average speed was 16.7 mph. At the 77 miles rest stop, we left a team member with SAG due to heat exhaustion. Many other riders were effected by the heat as well. At one point, we were riding on the road where the tar was popping up and hitting us in the legs. The last 3 miles were a struggle for me and felt the effects of the day. But I made it.

Starting Line on Day 1 (I'm on the right)

End of Day 1 (I'm on the right)

On Sunday, I rode 50 miles with the “big boys.” It’s what I have wanted to do since the ride last year. I rode with Bill and Todd and at the first rest stop we picked up a guy who rode with us for the remainder of the group. My average speed was 17.5 mph. At one point, we passed a route photographer. I happened to of been leading the pace line at that time. It made me feel so good to be pulling for 3 guys. I finished the 50 miles in just under 3 hours.

It was a fantastic but hot weekend. With the help of family, friends, and co-workers I raised over $1000 and made Top Crab.

Crossing the finish line on Day 2


Happy Birthday, iamexnyer!!

To the one who introduced me to QAF and got me addicted to fanfic.
This one’s for you!

He pushed me down against the bed. Then fell on top of me attacking my mouth, my neck, working his way down towards my penis. His kisses were hard yet so tender. We drank each other up unable to get enough. I tried to return the favor but Brian would have none of it. He was in control. As Brian pushed into me, I moaned in pleasure. His gorging cock was filling inside me. Thrust after thrust brought me closer to rapture. As we came in unison, Brian leaned in close and whispered my three favorite words in my ear.